It's not about getting it right

Updated: Oct 21, 2020

When I was about 13 years old, I won a scholarship from my dancing school.  I’m not even sure I knew the scholarship existed so needless to say I was surprised when my name was announced at the end of our annual dance recital.  I happened to be running the stage curtain that night, so after accepting the scholarship on stage I returned to my post in the wing of the stage for the finale.  As the music started, I furiously pulled the rope to raise the curtain, but no matter what I did, it didn’t seem to be going up – so I pulled even faster.  And then I saw it, the curtain was lowering – not raising.  I had been pulling the wrong way.  Several anxious people approached and helped me reverse course – but I was mortified.  I wasn’t sure I could ever face my dance teacher again.

Have you ever been under pressure that seemed like it caused you to make a mistake?  Pressure that flustered you to the point of adversely affecting your actions?  All I can think of when I think of Esther in this story is how much pressure she must be under.  

In case you missed it here’s the gist of what’s going on – it reads a bit like a soap opera.  Esther is a Jew, but no one knows she is a Jew.  She is married to King Aha.  King Aha has a prime minister named, Haman, who all Jews are supposed to bow down to.  But Esther’s uncle, Mordecai, refuses to bow down to Haman.  So, Haman decides to tell King Aha that all the Jews should be executed.  Which brings us to this chapter of Esther when Mordecai is requesting that Esther go to King Aha and plead for her people.  But just to make it more complicated – you’re not supposed to go to King Aha unless you are summoned, and Esther hasn’t been summoned.  So just going to the King to ask could get her killed.